So far I’ve dropped over 20 pounds since New Years. I’m thrilled with this new number. Looking forward to more weight dropping off.

So far, I’ve worked out five days in a row. Okay, so I’ve been doing about 10 minutes of walking or the bike. Yesterday I did a combined total of 20 minutes walking and the bike. Then I did a curves-like circuit workout and lifted free weights and did a few more machines for a total yesterday of 40 minutes. It felt so good to be at the gym trying to push my body a little harder than normal.



I really don’t enjoy exercising at all. I enjoy lifting weights, but know that I must do cardio to lose weight along with lifting weights.

This morning I woke around 2 a.m. Couldn’t get back to sleep so I went to the gym and worked out for 45 minutes. I did 15 minutes on the bike and the rest on weights with rest periods in between. Even though I did 15 minutes on the bike I really didn’t push myself. I lazed my way through that part of the workout doing 49-59 rpms. My heartrate was only at 98 bpm. Was this a good workout? I did something. I moved more than I usually do, but without pushing myself What good was this workout. Chime in. I’m interested to know what others think. Thank you for reading.

Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition Open Casting Call Tryout

Yesterday, I ventured to Chicago for an open casting call for the TV show Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. I didn’t get a call back, but had fun during the interview.

Here are some highlights from that casting call:
I was number 19 only about 100 people showed up by the time I left around 11:15 a.m.
We were taken into a room at the Copernicus Center in Chicago six at a time to be interviewed by two casting directors.
Some of the questions were:
What is your name, age, weight, height and what do you do for a living?
When you want to pig out where do you go what do you eat?
When you reach your ideal weight what do you want to do?
What is your ideal weight?
Did you ever play sports?
Do you have any family members, siblings who are overweight and if so how much do they weigh?
Do you have children or grandchildren?
Have you seen the show?

Even though I wasn’t chosen for a call back, I had a good time. The process of being in front of people talking about my weight and what I will do when I reach my goal weight lent itself to some soul searching. Why have I allowed myself to get this big and what will I do about it? I got this big because I gave up trying to lose weight. I failed at losing weight, failed at finding and keeping love and feel like a failure overall. What will I do different to combat this weight problem. I got the sleeve and now eat smaller portions and exercise once a month. Yes, once a month because I do want to fail and so set my exercise goal low enough for it to be reachable. So far this month I’ve worked out twice.

Changes other than Weight

This morning I fit into a small 5x shirt that was not able to go over my hips when I first bought it. Yeah! This is a victory. I bought it online and did not want the hassle of returning it. For two years it hung in my closet.

I’m thrilled I can wear it because that means I have a new shirt. Yeah!

Gained 9 pounds

I gained 9 pounds since last week. I haven’t been taking my lasix. I haven’t been drinking enough water and so my body is holding it. What the Hades! I need to get back on track. I weighed in this morning and the scale said (literally I have a talking scale so no cheating) “387.0 pounds”. Ugh!! It’s times like these that I desperately want to give in and throw in the towel. Weight loss is such a rocky road full of emotional ups and downs. Here’s a down. Ugh!!

Water Intake Needed

I need to add more water to my diet. I’m supposed to get 64 ounces and have been having trouble drinking that much even with water flavorings. I’m not sure why I’m having trouble because I enjoy water very much. I’ve noticed my urine is darker yellow, which is the reason I think I’m not getting enough water.

I plan to buy a 64 ounce jug of something, wash it out and use it at work to monitor my water intake. I feel dry when I wake in the mornings. Anyone else having this problem?

3 month blood draw

This morning I had a 3-month post surgery blood draw. The lady who took my blood was young and inexperienced and had trouble drawing it. Thank the Lord she finally got it after several pokes. No, I wasn’t happy about being poked so much, but I endured it. I’m curious to see how well I’ve done bloodwise.

The other day as I drove back to work during lunch I realized my belly was no longer rubbing on the steering wheel. I could put my hand between the wheel and my coat.


I weighed in this morning and found I was 378.4 pounds. I’m thrilled. I continue to drop about 2 pounds a week and am perfectly happy with that amount.

If all goes well by this time next year, I’ll have lost 104 pounds which will put me at 274 pounds. I don’t remember how it felt to be 274. Even so, right now I’m basking in being 378 pounds. Anything under 400 is a dream for me. If you’ve never weighed over 400 pounds then you will have no idea what I’m talking about. Hearing my talking scale say anything other than “400” makes me feel like crying. I am losing weight and it feels great.