Cookies and Going Up

This isn’t the way it was supposed to be. I had the surgery. You know THE surgery to have my stomach turned into a sleeve. After which I was supposed to live happily ever after as a size 16….What happened along the way? Cookies. Cake. Potato Chips. Anything and everything happened along the way. Do I really hate myself that much that I won’t stop eating sweets? That I won’t stop eating period (.) Ugh! There’s a monster living inside me called ME who wants what she wants when she wants it. Oh that I could eat only when I am hungry and only “good things”. Instead I betray myself with food. I sabotage my efforts when I get home from work having been very good while under the eye of my co-workers, but once out of the spotlight I go on binges that would make a circus fat woman proud.

Stuck

I’ve been stuck in the 360s for the last three months. Currently I weigh 359.4. This is very frustrating. I attribute my lack of progress to overeating. I don’t think I’m eating much, but obviously I’m doing something wrong to only make it into the 360s. I’m not exercising so that could be part of the problem.

Total lost to date 86 pounds

So far to date I’ve lost 86 pounds. I’m down to 361. When I get to 350 I’m going to give myself a treat. I’m planning on going to Michigan Adventure Amusement Park in Muskegon. Once I get down to 325 or 300 I may go to Harry Potter World in Orlando. Part of my goal of losing weight is to ride the Fly with Harry ride, which I could not fit into when the park first opened.