“Just keep swimming.” That’s what someone told me today when they asked how it was going with the weight loss. I told them I was stalled. They told me to be patient and to just keep doing what I’m doing. What I’m doing is skipping workouts because of the heat or I don’t feel up to it or whatever the excuse at the moment is. Plus, I do really well with food choices during the day, but at night I find I’m over eating. I’m not eating bad stuff, just overeating too much of the good stuff. It is so easy to overeat when I log everything into Sparkpeople.com I find myself going overboard. I am allotted 2400 calories a day, which should be enough. It is enough, but not when I eat pork country style ribs with barbecue sauce on it.
I went kayaking at Argo Canoe Livery in Ann Arbor Michigan Friday night and then again Sunday afternoon at Hayes State Park in Onsted Michigan. It was a scary experience as I paddled and drifted on the water looking down at the rocks and weeds–thinking I would flip and because my neck and back hurt–I was using muscles I haven’t used in quite some time–I cut the paddling short. Even so, I did it and plan to go kayaking again–building my confidence each time. What have you done to build your bravery?
So far for the last two weeks I’ve worked out at least three times a week. I’m starting to look forward to it and have a routine down: 10 minutes walking on the treadmill and 15-20 minutes on the recumbent bike, then circuit training with weights. Today, I went and worked out right after church. I’m probably going to have to workout right after work because if I go home first I’ll stay home.
So far I’ve dropped over 20 pounds since New Years. I’m thrilled with this new number. Looking forward to more weight dropping off.
So far, I’ve worked out five days in a row. Okay, so I’ve been doing about 10 minutes of walking or the bike. Yesterday I did a combined total of 20 minutes walking and the bike. Then I did a curves-like circuit workout and lifted free weights and did a few more machines for a total yesterday of 40 minutes. It felt so good to be at the gym trying to push my body a little harder than normal.
Yesterday, I ventured to Chicago for an open casting call for the TV show Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. I didn’t get a call back, but had fun during the interview.
Here are some highlights from that casting call:
I was number 19 only about 100 people showed up by the time I left around 11:15 a.m.
We were taken into a room at the Copernicus Center in Chicago six at a time to be interviewed by two casting directors.
Some of the questions were:
What is your name, age, weight, height and what do you do for a living?
When you want to pig out where do you go what do you eat?
When you reach your ideal weight what do you want to do?
What is your ideal weight?
Did you ever play sports?
Do you have any family members, siblings who are overweight and if so how much do they weigh?
Do you have children or grandchildren?
Have you seen the show?
Even though I wasn’t chosen for a call back, I had a good time. The process of being in front of people talking about my weight and what I will do when I reach my goal weight lent itself to some soul searching. Why have I allowed myself to get this big and what will I do about it? I got this big because I gave up trying to lose weight. I failed at losing weight, failed at finding and keeping love and feel like a failure overall. What will I do different to combat this weight problem. I got the sleeve and now eat smaller portions and exercise once a month. Yes, once a month because I do want to fail and so set my exercise goal low enough for it to be reachable. So far this month I’ve worked out twice.
This morning I fit into a small 5x shirt that was not able to go over my hips when I first bought it. Yeah! This is a victory. I bought it online and did not want the hassle of returning it. For two years it hung in my closet.
I’m thrilled I can wear it because that means I have a new shirt. Yeah!
I gained 9 pounds since last week. I haven’t been taking my lasix. I haven’t been drinking enough water and so my body is holding it. What the Hades! I need to get back on track. I weighed in this morning and the scale said (literally I have a talking scale so no cheating) “387.0 pounds”. Ugh!! It’s times like these that I desperately want to give in and throw in the towel. Weight loss is such a rocky road full of emotional ups and downs. Here’s a down. Ugh!!