“Just keep swimming.” That’s what someone told me today when they asked how it was going with the weight loss. I told them I was stalled. They told me to be patient and to just keep doing what I’m doing. What I’m doing is skipping workouts because of the heat or I don’t feel up to it or whatever the excuse at the moment is. Plus, I do really well with food choices during the day, but at night I find I’m over eating. I’m not eating bad stuff, just overeating too much of the good stuff. It is so easy to overeat when I log everything into Sparkpeople.com I find myself going overboard. I am allotted 2400 calories a day, which should be enough. It is enough, but not when I eat pork country style ribs with barbecue sauce on it.
Okay, so part of being in O.A. is so we can be open and honest and not judgmental. Whether you agree with my methods of dieting/life changes, etc. please don’t chase me out to my car offering motherly advice about the changes I should or could be making. I won’t want to share at group if I think my sharing is open to comment or will be seen by you as an invitation to offer advice. Love me as I am, where I am because I’m doing the best I can and know what I need to do without any commentary by you. Hopefully you know who you are. If you haven’t followed me out to my car offering advice, then I am not talking to you. Hopefully the person that did this in the O.A. group I belong to will read this and understand and not offer an apology, but will practice abstinence in any future advice offered to me. I don’t want it and I don’t need it. Sorry if anyone is offended by this, but I needed to say it. Thank you for listening and following what I need from you.
Those who know me and have been invited here know who I am. I want to be open and honest in these blogs and don’t want random people stumbling across my photo and saying–“oh, hey, I know that person”. I want to be free to write what I want here and not be judged for it.
This is why I took my face off the photo I posted. But why post a photo at all? I posted the photo so that I could have a record of my progress. So others would know the size of my body and so I would remember what I looked like as I continue to write about my struggles. I’m just not ready to reveal my face to the world.
I say I want to be open and honest in this blog, but how can I when I am willing to post a photo, but not my face? That isn’t being open and honest. Maybe it is me trying to protect me from an insensitive world full of good intentioned judgmental people. You know who you are and yeah, the finger is pointing right back at me too.
400 pound woman