It is Saturday morning. I’m up early. It’s time to go workout. Yeah or nay it doesn’t matter I’m going to do it.
I’ve been struggling with my weight for months now. I’m stuck in the 370s ugh!! Even so, I continue to workout. I think I must be overeating for what I’m doing at the gym. There is no other explanation for it.
So far for the last two weeks I’ve worked out at least three times a week. I’m starting to look forward to it and have a routine down: 10 minutes walking on the treadmill and 15-20 minutes on the recumbent bike, then circuit training with weights. Today, I went and worked out right after church. I’m probably going to have to workout right after work because if I go home first I’ll stay home.
Yesterday, I ventured to Chicago for an open casting call for the TV show Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. I didn’t get a call back, but had fun during the interview.
Here are some highlights from that casting call:
I was number 19 only about 100 people showed up by the time I left around 11:15 a.m.
We were taken into a room at the Copernicus Center in Chicago six at a time to be interviewed by two casting directors.
Some of the questions were:
What is your name, age, weight, height and what do you do for a living?
When you want to pig out where do you go what do you eat?
When you reach your ideal weight what do you want to do?
What is your ideal weight?
Did you ever play sports?
Do you have any family members, siblings who are overweight and if so how much do they weigh?
Do you have children or grandchildren?
Have you seen the show?
Even though I wasn’t chosen for a call back, I had a good time. The process of being in front of people talking about my weight and what I will do when I reach my goal weight lent itself to some soul searching. Why have I allowed myself to get this big and what will I do about it? I got this big because I gave up trying to lose weight. I failed at losing weight, failed at finding and keeping love and feel like a failure overall. What will I do different to combat this weight problem. I got the sleeve and now eat smaller portions and exercise once a month. Yes, once a month because I do want to fail and so set my exercise goal low enough for it to be reachable. So far this month I’ve worked out twice.